It’s far too obvious that you don’t really love me.
Yet I struggle on
And I give you my all.
But never never ever could you really see
That I had the door knobs to spaces unseen.
I just want to escape. Crawl through the passage way, to a time where you never even met me.
These are the areas,
The shadows of my heart.
I wish it could be as easy as that, if only I could truly believe you didn’t have love for me.
But even then, I feel it is a lie.
I feel I inevitably know, know that you do. That you love me. and its crazy because its hard to accept that I am worthy, but then it is also obvious and I know that I could find different varieties in the human race. that i could find more. but It is undeniable, the fact that our love is truly there. as bashful and private as you may be with your affections sometimes.
But how much is enough?
I just want to be enough for you,
want to dig deeper into your ways.
Want to understand why it’s so hard for you to show you truly love someone. Why is it so hard to believe that you are truly deserving of a terrific love? I know your parents are probably the best explanation. But still, I wish it could be easier for you.
And even more still, I find myself believing in you.
Still you have that thing.
And my patience runs thin but it’s reservoir has impressed me so far.
Patience for you is patience well worth it.